A Diary Entry

I have been so unbelievably busy with music making I almost forgot to eat yesterday… (almost..) I have been trying some new sounds which I really like. It’s cool to see my progress as an artist. I remember the days when I struggled to play an F or a bar chord. Now i’m playing in open tunings, experimenting with air tap, and most of it feels pretty effortless. I suppose that’s where working hard gets you. A task stands before you- daunting, impossible and you face it with every bit of determination and courage you can muster and then slowly, without any noticeable changes one day you’ve succeeded. That was what I realized this week. It took me over ten years to realize this but I finally am the guitarist that when I was eleven years old I dreamt that I would become. It’s an amazing feeling.

This week I’ll be recording with two very different producers both of which I love and respect so much. One in upstate New York one downstate. The production process is such an exciting but a very, very stressful time. I’m a perfectionist when it comes to my music and  I stay up at night imagining bass lines and harmonies in these songs that I’ve written so many, many months ago.

That’s perhaps the most frustrating part- having all of these songs that NOBODY has heard. I have 22 of them. That’s like two albums. These new songs detail some of the darkest and most beautiful days of my life. A recent illness, a difficult break up, an epiphany, a change of heart, and a rebirth. They are my blood and sweat and tears in sound and I care about them more than I care about almost anything else.

When you hear them you’ll see exactly what I’m talking about. My voice has changed- everything- style, sound, presentation. I assert myself more than I ever have as an artist with a confidence I only recently achieved. I hope these songs are as cathartic for my fans as they were for me.

Wednesday, September 12th I’ll be playing a show in Manhattan at Bar East. If you’re in the city, do come. I’ll be playing all these songs I’m raving about.

If you’ve read this far down the page- I love you, I really do.

A

One thought on “A Diary Entry

  1. It’s been awhile since I’ve been on your blog.But this diary entry is definitely you.So beautiful and shows a lot of dedication and love for everyone who loves ya.Your fans and friends.So thank you for spreading the joy love and happiness that you bring into everyone’s lives.Thank you!John

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